When God is Silent

When God is Silent

5 Ways to Hold On When You Can't Hear God's Voice --- For a good while now, my conversations with God have been one-sided. I talk... and then there’s silence. I ask... and perceive no response. I wait……  and still there is no sense of His nearness.  This is not normal for me and God. I feel forgotten, alone, defective. Hope wanes. The light of my countenance dulls. An extended “silent treatment” has afforded plenty of time to try a few new-to-me “are you there, God?” posturings.

He Leads Me Beside Muddied Waters

He Leads Me Beside Muddied Waters

For the life of me, I cannot get clarity right now. Can’t hear God, or feel Him, or see the way forward... At the same time, a great deal is being stirred, shifted, and exposed within my heart. Timidly trusting that growth and healing is taking place, I wonder if God is involved; if He [...]

Feasting on Full-Circle Moments

Feasting on Full-Circle Moments

Fall 2017 has been yet another season of transition for me. Cas began middle school, Jay settled into his new position, Jake (all five of us, turns out) joined a travel soccer league, Molly is learning to read, and I am working most days from bus pickup to bus drop off. All this means my [...]

On Being Overwhelmed: The One Question That Makes Sense of Everything

On Being Overwhelmed: The One Question That Makes Sense of Everything

Overwhelmed. It’s a state I’m quite familiar with. I thought we’d be less familiar the older my kids get. But Overwhelmed has a way of folding itself into every season of my life, in different forms and manifestations. For several years, God’s been teaching me to ask a specific question that disarms blurred anxiety and [...]

The {Less Travelled} Road Back to You // Lessons from the Enneagram

The {Less Travelled} Road Back to You // Lessons from the Enneagram

I've been quiet over here - it's summer, you know. But while I haven't been writing, I have been reading and listening and thinking. You know our ultimate dual-mandate: to love God and love our neighbors as ourselves? I've long considered this a three-pronged mission. For we are to love our neighbors as much as [...]

The Way He Should Go

The Way He Should Go

It's the morning after the last TCAP (Tennessee's standardized tests), a soft rain just the permission we needed to sleep in. As a third grader, this was Jake's first experience with the tests that somehow mean everything and nothing. Jake is more of an athlete than a scholar, and I'm still trying to figure out what to [...]

My #1 Way to Actually Enjoy Cleaning the House

My #1 Way to Actually Enjoy Cleaning the House

You walk into your living room and suddenly it hits you: Wait, this place is a mess! Was my house this dirty yesterday? What happened? Who lives here, a gaggle of vermin? Didn't I just clean... um... a couple days ago? Naturally, the next thought is: the last thing in the world I want to do right [...]