When God is Silent

When God is Silent

5 Ways to Hold On When You Can't Hear God's Voice --- For a good while now, my conversations with God have been one-sided. I talk... and then there’s silence. I ask... and perceive no response. I wait……  and still there is no sense of His nearness.  This is not normal for me and God. I feel forgotten, alone, defective. Hope wanes. The light of my countenance dulls. An extended “silent treatment” has afforded plenty of time to try a few new-to-me “are you there, God?” posturings.

He Leads Me Beside Muddied Waters

He Leads Me Beside Muddied Waters

For the life of me, I cannot get clarity right now. Can’t hear God, or feel Him, or see the way forward... At the same time, a great deal is being stirred, shifted, and exposed within my heart. Timidly trusting that growth and healing is taking place, I wonder if God is involved; if He [...]

On Being Overwhelmed: The One Question That Makes Sense of Everything

On Being Overwhelmed: The One Question That Makes Sense of Everything

Overwhelmed. It’s a state I’m quite familiar with. I thought we’d be less familiar the older my kids get. But Overwhelmed has a way of folding itself into every season of my life, in different forms and manifestations. For several years, God’s been teaching me to ask a specific question that disarms blurred anxiety and [...]

The {Less Travelled} Road Back to You // Lessons from the Enneagram

The {Less Travelled} Road Back to You // Lessons from the Enneagram

I've been quiet over here - it's summer, you know. But while I haven't been writing, I have been reading and listening and thinking. You know our ultimate dual-mandate: to love God and love our neighbors as ourselves? I've long considered this a three-pronged mission. For we are to love our neighbors as much as [...]

The Gift of Seeing Upside Down

The Gift of Seeing Upside Down

The West Wing is one of my all-time favorite TV series. I've seen every episode at least three times, and am currently working my way through another full run-through while I sew in the afternoons. In season two, the press secretary, CJ Cregg (Allison Janney), has a little encounter with the Organization of Cartographers for Social Equality. The mapmakers highlight the [...]

To Mallory, On Her Surpassing Glory

To Mallory, On Her Surpassing Glory

I met Mallory almost fifteen years ago, a Belmont communications major ten years after I was (there weren't many of us), full of energy and joy and laughter and spunk and beautiful words and big dreams and passionate worship. (Worshipping with her at Grace Center was the best.) She and a handful of others were Jay and mine's pride [...]

2016 and a Fragile Faith

2016 and a Fragile Faith

Dude. 2016: That's gonna leave a mark. Not so much here -- or here -- but right along in here. (If you know what I mean.) Looking back over the past twelve months, I find myself deeply grateful for God's nearness, for unexpected gifts, for my children, for so much. So very much, it's stunning. [...]